Thursday, September 15, 2011

After the Evaluation

It's not bad, just not what I expected. My mother in law/ love is my evaluator. Mind you she is laid back and I highly respect, and love her deeply. That said, we do not share the same love of Yeshua my messiah.

Knowing my son is a lil special, I may have put off testing of any kind, thinking he would grow out of all the quirks. My mother in law took a big breath, one of relief that he could read, the other that he "should" be writing better. My heart sunk. Have I already failed this special boy the Lord gave me?  My mother in law was not harsh or mean, thank G*d. She was supportive and began to tell me some children process things different.  My journey begins.

People may poo poo facebook, but I have tons of veteran home school moms on there. There is where my info begins. Felice Gerwitz of Media Angels took over The Ultimate Home School Expo from Cindy Rushton and just as I needed Felice did a Special Needs Expo. Thankfully, I was able to attend this one. We are getting on our feet a bit, after a huge slump of unemployment and starting a business from nothing. The Lord knew the how's, the who's, the speakers.  I was blessed beyond! The group of ladies in the chat room where funny, encouraging, & inspiring.  We laughed, cried, worshiped, and prayed for one another.

I learned so much! So I am going to enjoy my son as the gift he is and unwrap him slowly and savor every surprise and every spark that comes from him. 

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It's Time for the Fall Season of 21 Days of Prayer for Sons

For all the details check Brooke's page and come join dedicated mama's who pray the word over their sons in the areas they need it the most. You will be blessed as you bless your sons with the word of G*d over their lives.

We are starting Sept 6th so get your copy of the book that will change the way you pray for your sons.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

There is Nothing New Under the Sun Ecc 1:9

Praying without ceasing has a different meaning for me. While I have prayed the word over my sons since my Pastor taught it many years ago. I find the joined prayer of like minded Mamas very affirming. I am also in a group doing The Ministry of Motherhood, and reading Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts, and Monte Swan's Romancing Your Child's Heart. It's like parenting boot camp.

I have never woke before everyone, this is a huge challenge and has been a struggle, but I desire to be this person. Thankfully our home school is on vacation for a month.

So, yesterday after a long day taking care of my mother and shopping with hubby and lil guy, I spent some time in my #1 son's room while he played his video games. He had just been to a hunting class. Of course lil guy comes in a joins in the conversation and we are just spending time together between yawns. I ask if Joe "lil guy" can read his bible while we are in there, so of course Sean "#1" says yes. While reading lil guy informs me he is going to be a priest, that he had a dream and YHWY told him to be a priest like He told Sean to be a lawyer. My jaw dropped. Lil guy is going to be 8. Sean heard from the Lord at about 14.

This is not a total surprise as I have prayed the word over him and have him speak the word in his prayers. He is a bold lil guy. I had a feeling when he was 3 at a friends wedding after the Pastor said Amen, he loudly recited: Psalm 103:1 "Bless the Lord O my soul and all that is within me, Jesus I love you, Haleyula"!

He is a story teller, he has vivid dreams. I tell him always, G*d is going to use him mightily.

As I ponder these things I know he will do something great for the Lord. He was a miracle from birth. I attempted an unassisted vbac at home that went bad. I had toxemia and full blown seizures. All I can say is that the prayer of the fervent availed much. In the "world" we should not be here. He had other plans.

Doing these studies has been what I need after loosing my dad last November, and my childhood friend the year before that. Time to live fully, love deeply, smile often.

I have precious gifts from the King and I am living in the state of shock and awe of His grace, and I am counting it all joy through life's journey.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

In the Quietness of My Mind You are there.

This place has been on my mind for some time. I have not felt settled any one place. I have moments of "okay,this is what I have". I have come to accept that this is not my home, and that my soul knows very well. So this is short and sweet. Today till whenever, the corner of the couch will do, because in the quietness of my mind You are there! Thank you Father.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Wondering about my Rewards

As I ponder why the Lord hasn't given me more...the Holy Spirit is gently saying it is not about the number, it is about who they are to you. The light bulb just got a little brighter in my mind.
I have an overwhelming love for these two very different rewards. I know that He has given them to me to be for Him and His kingdom and I am blown away by who they are in Him who made them.
No 1 was speedy & easy to teach and train, a soft and gentle spirit.
No 2 oiy! He is the better late than early kind, hard to teach and train, rambling, jumping, and loud, but a real esoteric spirit.

I pray I do better always, and not crush their spirits for they are my rewards.

I am forever thankful to a Father who gave these gifts to me, so undeserving, yet showered in immeasurable grace through the blood of my messiah Yeshua.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

My Passover/Easter Miracle

1 Peter 3:1-2 says: In the same way, you wives, be submissive to your own husbands so that even if any of them are disobedient to the word, they may be won without a word by the behavior of their wives, as they observe your chaste and respectful behavior. NAS

So the truth of the matter and the test of my life has been to be quiet. I fight back! You hurt me and I defend myself. That is just how I was brought up and how I live. This is not a godly way to live and after all these years of praying for my husband, my heart was ready to give up "the defensive self." I chose to be loving instead of stand offish. Without expecting anything in return from the man, the Holy man put something on the inside my husband and he asked me if he would like it if he went to church with me? Shock and awe is all I can say.

The grief of my loosing my friend in '09, and my dad in '10 had overtaken my life with a sadness I never knew could be that overwhelming. I had just been floating through the daily routine of life waiting for it to be over. I didn't know now would be the time but here it is.

Bible reading with Joseph about Purim, Passover, and the watching the Passion of Christ with Eddie & Joe was like a weight was lifted. Something do deep I couldn't find, but the Lord knew where it was! He gave me beauty for ashes, just like He said he would. He is forever faithful to me.

So I will not be unequally yoked for much longer. Ed did go to church with us. My Pastor was great. He has been a friend to Eddie and never beat him with the bible. He spoke of the Passover and traditions I have been trying to learn. All I can say was the term shock and awe is an understatement!

I asked Ed if he like Pastor Ralph's preaching, he said yes. You know I was praying the night before and all through service. Oh yeah, my lil guy gets on his knees and starts bowing in worship and all I could think is Lord let this not be held against you and Ed thinks we are kooky, or never lets me go back, but the subject never came up. YHWY needs NO defending!

Thank you all for you prayers.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Just Trying to Get By

Every time I think the grief is behind me, something comes up and slaps me in the face.

The bible says to everything there is a season, I want this season to pass and be healed!

Joseph has been a sweetie this past week and the Lord gets the glory!

Delighting in the Lord & counting it All joy-no matter how I feel!

His favorite place in the world, with the fish. It was so hot, but we had a great time.

Not starting out so well

July 16, 2008

Well if the past few weeks haven’t been hard enough, after a visit with my niece’s family whose lil one was sick, of course Joe & Roxx are now sick. This is one reason we have always started in July. For one the thunder showers not much to do out when the weather is ultra hot and rainy. May as well do school.

Company always comes as well in the summer months too. So there is plenty of time to get our days in.

Thank you Lord that by your stripes Joseph, Roxx and me are healed, in Jesus name.

Ready or Not… here we go!

July 1, 2008
I guess I am as ready as I am going to be considering the things in life that go on. We started yesterday and it went so-so. Joseph is a way different child than Sean was. I need to finish reading Homeschooling with a Meek and Quiet Spirit by Terri Maxwell. I knew I would need this book with this child. Today was more difficult than yesterday but God’s grace is sufficient. I am thankful for His strength and His Holy Spirit. Thank you Doorposts, Thank you God for this child I have prayed, I am so glad I have him.

He is now working on getting his "Family" badge from Contenders for the Faith. That is a good thing.

I pray that my children are taught by the Lord and great shall be their peace.

He did some lil foam projects that kept him busy for a while and he liked that.
We are reading Leading Little Ones to God, that just so happen to be in Homeschooling Today. I thought wow, it’s not something I have to go out and get, I got it at the FPEA convention in May. Yippee! We are also doing "Got to Have God", and Plants Grown Up. To my unsaved husband it may look like lots of bible but that is what I think is the most important part of life. I have no greater joy to know my children walk in truth. HIS!

We are doing Math U See and Hooked on Phonics. Lots of stuff makes home school/ school for life.

Saying Good-bye for now

June 23, 2008
Yesterday the battle for a sister in the Lord’s husband ended. We ran the race, we believed for a miracle, we stood in faith, we trusted God, now a new battle of trusting begins. With 4 children, just 1yr, turning 4, turning 6, and turning 8 she will need new strength and find new hope in her King Jesus. If the Lord leads you, please lift them up in prayer.

Learning to deal with no

June 21, 2008
The day started out nice as we went to Joe’s friends birthday party. When we got home that was another story. DH, DS, DN, were all watching a scary movie and Joseph was not happy about that. He wasn’t budging either. TV’s computers, toys… he just wanted to be in the living room watching his shows. I really hate that big silver god. When all that settled and I got him in his room and things were quite I went up to take a shower. I am not in there 5 min and I hear him screaming. DH wanted him to come up and he said no, hit his dad, spit which I can’t believe, he has not done that before. Well even though I don’t agree with the hubby I knew I had to honor him and talk to Joe about obeying his dad. I pray the Lord turn the hearts of the fathers to the children and the hearts of the children to the father. I also pray my husband does not provoke my son to wrath (he does) he is not saved, so …

tonight there will be no TV, or computer, just good ol’ fashion play with what you have and be thankful.

Joe's 5th Birthday

Joe's 5th Birthday

We had another pool party this year, by request. I love that little kids make things so simple. The innocence of a child just wanting his friends to come over and play moves my heart. We had chips, pretzels, hot dogs, cake and ice cream. Pretty basic. A good time was had by all.
I could not have done it by myself though, our pool area is under construction and needed tons of cleaning, moving supplies, uff ! I am glad that’s over and thank God for Sean. He did so much for me.

Hopefully when it’s my turn for the hs group to come to our pool it will not be so bad.

Starting Out Slowly

Where to begin again? After Sean’s graduation last year and Roxxanne’s this year, starting Joseph with school will be interesting. When I got back from the convention I showed him some stuff I got for him and that was fun. We started with our bible reading and devotions, then did some ABC’s and then watched Mr Demme of Math U See. Did some penmanship and some space study (coloring the planets), piano for preschoolers and then were done.

I forgot how fun it is to see that spark. Well alas in only a couple of short weeks we are off track (mine) with life. I only wanted to try this sorta routine to see how it would go before we officially start this July. I can see how important it is for both of us to have a routine set in place with consistency and order. After all, My God is a God of order, and I haven’t always been rigid. We have always done what was needed in a laid back setting. I hope I can achieve that same level of comfy laid back attitude with Joseph’s "schooling". I want the Lord to be his center, his rock, his truth and his salvation.

Sean was so easy to talk about the things of the Lord when we rise up when we walk by the way, when we lay down. Joseph’s mind is going faster than I can get any words out of my mouth. Thank you Lord for Door Posts on the fridge. I just say lets go to the board! My slow almost 44 brain and mouth have help. So slow and steady for this mom starting over.

Thank you Father that my children are taught by you, and great shall be their peace.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Women Living Well Blog: Thriving In A Spiritually Mismatched Marriage

Women Living Well Blog: Thriving In A Spiritually Mismatched Marriage

I found this blog via Amanda P that led me to this post. There is always some one who as been there done that. There is nothing new under the sun...Ecclesiastes 1:9

I needed this encouragement to keep fighting the good fight of faith. Not being wearing in well doing...while I wait for my beloved to be won without a word and not become bitter, I submit myself to the Holy one who loves me as I am.

Thanks Courtney!