After the Evaluation

It's not bad, just not what I expected. My mother in law/ love is my evaluator. Mind you she is laid back and I highly respect, and love her deeply. That said, we do not share the same love of Yeshua my messiah.

Knowing my son is a lil special, I may have put off testing of any kind, thinking he would grow out of all the quirks. My mother in law took a big breath, one of relief that he could read, the other that he "should" be writing better. My heart sunk. Have I already failed this special boy the Lord gave me?  My mother in law was not harsh or mean, thank G*d. She was supportive and began to tell me some children process things different.  My journey begins.

People may poo poo facebook, but I have tons of veteran home school moms on there. There is where my info begins. Felice Gerwitz of Media Angels took over The Ultimate Home School Expo from Cindy Rushton and just as I needed Felice did a Special Needs Expo. Thankfully, I was able to attend this one. We are getting on our feet a bit, after a huge slump of unemployment and starting a business from nothing. The Lord knew the how's, the who's, the speakers.  I was blessed beyond! The group of ladies in the chat room where funny, encouraging, & inspiring.  We laughed, cried, worshiped, and prayed for one another.

I learned so much! So I am going to enjoy my son as the gift he is and unwrap him slowly and savor every surprise and every spark that comes from him. 

It's Time for the Fall Season of 21 Days of Prayer for Sons

For all the details check Brooke's page and come join dedicated mama's who pray the word over their sons in the areas they need it the most. You will be blessed as you bless your sons with the word of G*d over their lives.

We are starting Sept 6th so get your copy of the book that will change the way you pray for your sons.

There is Nothing New Under the Sun Ecc 1:9

Praying without ceasing has a different meaning for me. While I have prayed the word over my sons since my Pastor taught it many years ago. I find the joined prayer of like minded Mamas very affirming. I am also in a group doing The Ministry of Motherhood, and reading Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts, and Monte Swan's Romancing Your Child's Heart. It's like parenting boot camp.

I have never woke before everyone, this is a huge challenge and has been a struggle, but I desire to be this person. Thankfully our home school is on vacation for a month.

So, yesterday after a long day taking care of my mother and shopping with hubby and lil guy, I spent some time in my #1 son's room while he played his video games. He had just been to a hunting class. Of course lil guy comes in a joins in the conversation and we are just spending time together between yawns. I ask if Joe "lil guy" can read his bible while we are in there, so of course Sean "#1" says yes. While reading lil guy informs me he is going to be a priest, that he had a dream and YHWY told him to be a priest like He told Sean to be a lawyer. My jaw dropped. Lil guy is going to be 8. Sean heard from the Lord at about 14.

This is not a total surprise as I have prayed the word over him and have him speak the word in his prayers. He is a bold lil guy. I had a feeling when he was 3 at a friends wedding after the Pastor said Amen, he loudly recited: Psalm 103:1 "Bless the Lord O my soul and all that is within me, Jesus I love you, Haleyula"!

He is a story teller, he has vivid dreams. I tell him always, G*d is going to use him mightily.

As I ponder these things I know he will do something great for the Lord. He was a miracle from birth. I attempted an unassisted vbac at home that went bad. I had toxemia and full blown seizures. All I can say is that the prayer of the fervent availed much. In the "world" we should not be here. He had other plans.

Doing these studies has been what I need after loosing my dad last November, and my childhood friend the year before that. Time to live fully, love deeply, smile often.

I have precious gifts from the King and I am living in the state of shock and awe of His grace, and I am counting it all joy through life's journey.

In the Quietness of My Mind You are there.

This place has been on my mind for some time. I have not felt settled any one place. I have moments of "okay,this is what I have". I have come to accept that this is not my home, and that my soul knows very well. So this is short and sweet. Today till whenever, the corner of the couch will do, because in the quietness of my mind You are there! Thank you Father.

Wondering about my Rewards

As I ponder why the Lord hasn't given me more...the Holy Spirit is gently saying it is not about the number, it is about who they are to you. The light bulb just got a little brighter in my mind.
I have an overwhelming love for these two very different rewards. I know that He has given them to me to be for Him and His kingdom and I am blown away by who they are in Him who made them.
No 1 was speedy & easy to teach and train, a soft and gentle spirit.
No 2 oiy! He is the better late than early kind, hard to teach and train, rambling, jumping, and loud, but a real esoteric spirit.

I pray I do better always, and not crush their spirits for they are my rewards.

I am forever thankful to a Father who gave these gifts to me, so undeserving, yet showered in immeasurable grace through the blood of my messiah Yeshua.

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My Passover/Easter Miracle

1 Peter 3:1-2 says: In the same way, you wives, be submissive to your own husbands so that even if any of them are disobedient to the word, they may be won without a word by the behavior of their wives, as they observe your chaste and respectful behavior. NAS

So the truth of the matter and the test of my life has been to be quiet. I fight back! You hurt me and I defend myself. That is just how I was brought up and how I live. This is not a godly way to live and after all these years of praying for my husband, my heart was ready to give up "the defensive self." I chose to be loving instead of stand offish. Without expecting anything in return from the man, the Holy man put something on the inside my husband and he asked me if he would like it if he went to church with me? Shock and awe is all I can say.

The grief of my loosing my friend in '09, and my dad in '10 had overtaken my life with a sadness I never knew could be that overwhelming. I had just been floating through the daily routine of life waiting for it to be over. I didn't know now would be the time but here it is.

Bible reading with Joseph about Purim, Passover, and the watching the Passion of Christ with Eddie & Joe was like a weight was lifted. Something do deep I couldn't find, but the Lord knew where it was! He gave me beauty for ashes, just like He said he would. He is forever faithful to me.

So I will not be unequally yoked for much longer. Ed did go to church with us. My Pastor was great. He has been a friend to Eddie and never beat him with the bible. He spoke of the Passover and traditions I have been trying to learn. All I can say was the term shock and awe is an understatement!

I asked Ed if he like Pastor Ralph's preaching, he said yes. You know I was praying the night before and all through service. Oh yeah, my lil guy gets on his knees and starts bowing in worship and all I could think is Lord let this not be held against you and Ed thinks we are kooky, or never lets me go back, but the subject never came up. YHWY needs NO defending!

Thank you all for you prayers.